But I don't. It's almost a carpe diem thing. This is my life, my only life, and I will choose to live it a certain way, and because of my decisions, I try to make the best of it. So I'm not living it up in a big city, being famous and shit, making lots of money. Yeah, that sucks, but I'm the one that chose to have a child, chose to be in a very meaningful relationship and pursue a more domestic lifestyle. That was my choice, so I'm going to enjoy it. I take pleasure in the little things, like my daughter telling me that I'm her "best friend." I look forward to things like cookouts and making breakfast and hanging out with the kids in the backyard wading pool. That sort of thing may seem mundane to someone else, but I don't give a shit. It's what I like.
A friend of mine once gave me a card that I still have. It's very simple, black background with white lettering. It reads:
Fall in love or fall in hate.
Get inspired or be depressed.
Ace a test or flunk a class.
Make babies or make art.
Speak the truth or lie and cheat.
Dance on tables or sit in the corner.
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride...
I fucking love that card. It makes me feel better every time I read it. That's how I see it. You choose what you do. Life is chaos, you take what you can from it, and whether it's defined as good or bad or otherwise is up to you.